As a child it was a determined fact in my family that I would not be the kid to ever be a missionary. My hate for bugs, dirt, and anything else outside of my comfort zone played right along with what we assumed my future would be. Not to mention how shy I was. Boldness was not in my vocabulary and I often played the safe side of the fence with everything that I did. Stepping outside of my comfort zone was not something that I even thought about, unless I was forced to by my mom. Leaving the country for the name of Christ was laughable if it was brought up in the same sentence with my name. I was content with where I would one day end up, and that was that.
I never once felt compelled torwards missions until my first trip to Jamaica. I fell in love with the children and the Lord tore my heart to pieces for them.. But, I still never considered it a calling. One day I was praying about my future, and was getting very impatient with what the Lord wanted me to do. I asked out of frustration for the Lord to please tell me where I was headed. I have never been so sure, and heard something so clear in my life. Africa then became where my brain, eyes, and heart started to lean to.
That was over three years ago and I did not ever imagine that I would be headed to Africa so soon. I am young but the Lord is turning me into a Lioness and giving me the boldness that I need in order to fulfill what He has written for me to do. He has transformed my personality into who I need to be. In January I will be heading to West Africa for one year and quite honestly I am scared to death. But, my passion and excitement outweighs every fear that I have. It is never easy to walk in a place of uncertainty, especially when there is more against my cause than there is for it. The Lord has called me and regardless of circumstances I will be there in January of 2011. The progress is slow, but progressive. The God that created me before I was ever even thought of will carry out in me His purpose until it is finished, whenever that may be. I do not fear death but its circumstances. The blood of Jesus covers every inch of me. His grace is sufficient and His love is everlasting.
This is my journey.
i'm totally crying. but in a good way.
ReplyDeleteawe, why girl?
ReplyDeletei just love seeing how He has totally molded you into His plan for your life. and it's just so beautiful. following Him is always so sooo beautiful. the journey to become what He wants you to be is beautiful. gosh, let me stop before the happy tears come again :)
ReplyDeletewow i am so blessed to be a part of such an amazing girl's life and the calling that she has to go into the land.... i will be praying passionately the whole time that u are gone!!.. from my family to u and yours we blees everything that comes your way in the name of JESUS ... we will be here for your every need that we are capable of fulfilling and u know that u can count on us for that...oh and p.s. i will keep u fully stocked on gummi worms(lol)... i know that this is a true calling of the LORD and that u will be fully protected by his grace and mercy.. u will do an awesome job while u are there and touch more hearts than u could ever imagine... Carmen the boys and myself are so proud of what u will enbark on in this next step of your life .. and we are so humbled by your love for JESUS.. and we are proud to be a part of your life and friends of you and your family
ReplyDeletethanks, man! you guys are so encouraging and i could do absolutely nothing without the support of great friends like you guys. yall are awesome!
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